The beginning of the end.

Here I start where it all went down hill.

No not where it started. I'll start from downhill itself.

Yes today we became friends, just friends and nothing more. They are back together, of my own doing I presume. I wish them the best of luck. I'd like to think I do not kid myself when I think I couldnt ask anymore of him. Am I kidding myself? Well maybe I am, but Its better that way, than to think there will be 'us' sometime again 'soon'. I have no inkling how I will survive it. If we were meant to be, would it be so hard or difficult? I dont think love is difficult. I think we make things difficult for ourselves when we want to believe that one thing is possible when in reality, it isnt.

Now to start from the top.

We are both bloggers. We met via blogger. Then we talked on messenger.
The first time for a short while. I didnt reveal my identity, infact he had a hard time getting it.
We did the initial pleasantries.
Then the second conversation was where it all started.
Yes, as sad as it sounds, I have that conversation tucked away somewhere.

Weird as it may sound. we had concurrent conversations, in two different places at the same time.

I didnt see it coming, neither did he. It just happened.

But now it has ended.
This was meant to be our blog, but now its just mine.
He asked me if we could start one, I agreed, but we never got around to it, but now that I've lost him, I have the time to start it.
For me to come here and wallow in the misery of it all.